Fertility Blog

Do you ever catch yourself creating a scenario in your mind that is similar to that of a horror film?  And then something will happen that jolts you back to your current reality (where you are completely safe), and you’re like…..what on earth was that?!!

It could be watching someone cross the stree...

1 in 4 pregnancies result in a loss. This statistic is the published version, however it's probably closer to 1 in 3. I’m sorry for the bluntness of that statement, however there is no way to sugar coat the reality. I wasn’t aware of that statistic until I became the 1 in 4. 

But despite it being s...

In the beginning, that two week wait is approached with excitement and hope for the possibilities.  You start to create a mental movie of you looking at that positive pregnancy test and screaming with excitement, you picture yourself telling your family and friends in a frenzy of tears and hugs, you...

It’s ok to be scared.  We all are.

It’s ok to be scared to hope and dream of what it would be like to hold your baby in your arms, in case it doesn’t happen.

It’s ok to be scared that your friends will have babies before you, and you’ll be left behind, all alone.

It’s ok to be scared of doing IVF...

Are you angry?  I mean REALLY angry.  Like there is a fire burning in your belly that is just waiting to be unleashed.  If you said yes, you’re not alone……and you’re in the right place.

I understand anger.  I was intimate with anger for a very long time.  It was my go-to emotion.  My safety net. If...

If you play team sports, there’s always a coach, right?  Someone who creates the direction, keeps the players motivated, who develops the plays, and a strategy.  Someone who tells them what to focus on.  Otherwise, they’d all be running around bumping into each other, right?  That coach is usually s...

How many times have you punished yourself for not making a better choice?  Which then turns into a regret and a source of self-punishment.  

Why didn’t I do IVF sooner?!

I should have changed my diet earlier!

I knew I should have moved doctors.

If we’d just used donor eggs in the first place, w...

That moment you realize you can feel the pain, and still be ok, is the moment you will be free.

Let’s get honest about infertility.

I was always afraid to let the pain of infertility and loss get too close.  I know that sounds weird given the fact that I was living inside it for so long.  But I wa...

"Just be grateful", they say.

But how can you possibly be grateful for anything, when you’re struggling to conceive?

I’ll be honest - the concept of gratitude pissed me off when I was on my fertility journey.  I had so many people telling me to just be grateful for what I had. 

Firstly, it annoye...

Christmas used to be my favorite time of the year.  You walk through shopping malls and Christmas carols are being piped over the loud speaker.  Santa clause is posing with small children who are either idolizing him, or terrified of him.  The sparkling decorations are draped from the ceiling.  Ther...

Why, as women, do we take on so much guilt and responsibility for our fertility journey and the fact that we struggle?

Despite my husband having sub-par sperm (our fertility specialist’s words, not mine), I still took all the blame for when we didn’t get many embryos at the end of a cycle.  I’d say...

Infertility is complicated, right?  The range of emotions we experience, trying to let go of that picture we had in our head of how having a baby was supposed to look like, the gratitude and the grief all rolled into one.  Whatever path you go down, it’s all hard and comes with its own set of decisi...